We try to fill our divide
But the gap widens
Every time we open our mouths.
I want you to know me.
I want you to reach inside my heart
Through my layers of skin
I wear as protection from
The viruses that fester in my biome
Trying to alter my DNA
Making my life their sanctuary.
But it’s a selfish wish.
A wish for me to be seen
When I never try to see you
As more than an outline.
I guess that’s what I need right now,
An outline I can color in with my hopes and dreams.
I need to believe in the idea of you
So I can believe there is still something out there for me.
I think we’re all selfish.
Creatures of habit
Seeking ourselves out in others
Becoming the viruses we try so desperately to escape.
Tell me what piece of you do you see in me that makes you keep seeking.
If we open our eyes is it possible we might find all we could never realize?
But I’m terrified of letting you bleed through the colors I’ve already stained onto your skin
I’m not sure I can stomach much more disappointment in the details.
Instead I’ll chose to stay blind,
Hide in the divide,
And let our colors fade with time.